Thursday, May 16, 2013

Crossreads Book Blast - Susette Williams

NOTE TO MY READERS:  This author post is not me. :-) But I encourage you to enter. Great children's books!

TITLE: Book Blast: Wacky Wishes by Susette Williams, Illustrated by Jack Foster - Enter to Win a $25 Amazon Gift Card!
Title: Wacky Wishes By Susette Williams Author, Jack Foster Illustrator

About the Book:

Tommy and Suzie find a wishing well and like children do, they begin making wishes. Imagine their surprise when their wishes start to come true! Are spacesuits the new dress code at school? What�s Tommy going to do with three heads? You�ve heard of, �Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.� When Tommy and Suzie's wishing gets out of hand, will they be able to wish away the mess they've created before their wishes run out?

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Susette_300_dpiSusette Williams Author, Jack Foster Illustrator Susette Williams is a Best Selling Author. She loves writing various genres, both for children and adults. She usually can't resist the urge to let her ornery sense of humor shine through in one of her characters and has always believed that laughter helps you deal with the obstacles life puts in your way. Susette and her husband have six wonderful children, all with intriguing and different personalities, like the characters she creates in her novels. Jack Foster has illustrated over 25 children's books. He is a Sunday school teacher, art teacher and the father of five terrific children and eleven wonderful grand kids. He lives just outside of Chicago with his lovely wife, dog and cat. Check out his work at www.jacksillustrations.blogspot.com Follow Susette Williams Website | Facebook | Twitter

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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

The Enemy Wears Camouflage

You know that you have been taught, "An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth." But I tell you not to try to get even with a person who has done something to you. When someone slaps your right cheek, turn and let that person slap your other cheek. If someone sues you for your shirt, give up your coat as well. If a soldier forces you to carry his pack one mile, carry it two miles. When people ask you for something, give it to them. When they want to borrow money, lend it to them. You have heard people say, "Love your neighbors and hate your enemies." But I tell you to love your enemies and pray for anyone who mistreats you. Then you will be acting like your Father in heaven. He makes the sun rise on both good and bad people. And he sends rain for the ones who do right and for the ones who do wrong. If you love only those people who love you, will God reward you for that? Even tax collectors love their friends. If you greet only your friends, what's so great about that? Don't even unbelievers do that? But you must always act like your Father in heaven.(Matthew 5:38-48 CEV)

It hurt. Those words said to me. I felt neglected, overlooked, unappreciated. Invisible. It wasn't the first time either, so I guess I should have expected it.

People are inherently selfish. It's, "Do for me. Give to me. Look at me."

And I was as guilty as them in that regard, so maybe this was my fault. Maybe I sewed the seed of hate and neglect at some point, maybe I overlooked someone. Maybe I didn't shine the light of Christ bright enough. And this is my reward.

Then again ...

Christ's instructions were written to everyone. My name's written there, but so is theirs. Did they think of that when they spoke to me? Did they even realize with their behavior they became the enemy. Because the enemy is in our own camp.

The enemy is that guy who shook your hand yesterday, put a dime in your pocket, dipped your plate, cut your hair, sat in your pew, and in the next breath said, "Did you see her?" Your enemy is the one closest to you, the friend, the child, the spouse, parent, or inlaw you've pledged to love and cherish, but then they turn their back because they have "other things to do."

The enemy doesn't come clothed in fluorescent orange. The enemy wears camouflage. They look like you. They look like me.

And I must love them anyway. That's what Jesus said. He said, "They spoke against you about this thing, so offer them the other one as well." Equal opportunity insults.

And greet them.
And carry their pack.
And lend them things expecting nothing in return.

Because we must always act like our Father in heaven. No greater act than His was stabbed in the back more. Nothing ever said to me, spoken over me, or whispered behind my back compares.

I haven't died for my enemy. But He did.
 
So really what's a slap on the other cheek? Piddly. Small. Inconsequential. What's another dime from my pocket? Another meal I didn't want to take? Another book I didn't want to give away. Another negative comment, remark, or review when it makes me like Him.

And that is my goal, to be like Him. Like Him in victory. Like Him in power. Like Him in prayer and glory and healthy and prosperity. Like Him in offering salvation to the poor, the downtrodden, the hopeless.

Like Him in love. In reaction, reflex, and recoil. So much like Him that in my worst pain, in that moment I want to curl up and cry, or lash out in hate, instead I tilt my cheek and say, "Go ahead. Do it again."


For all the times I’ve failed You, Lord
Forgive me
For all the ways I’ve fallen short
Lord, forgive me now
God, I’m so in need of grace
I fall upon my face
Forgive me

Forgive Me by Rebecca St. James
 


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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Sunday Photographs

My Steve's Digicams article is now online. I went out to walk the dog, THEN LIGHT CAME. Read my thoughts on my most popular recent image.


Here's this week's 365 Project photographs. To see the complete album, visit my Photobucket.


Day 125, False Dandelion
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Day 126, Fairy Lily
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Day 127, Crescent Moon
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Day 128, Water Hyacinths
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Day 129, Sunrise and Fog
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Day 130, Male Brown Anole
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Day 131, Miniature Rose
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A few extras.

False Dandelions
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My Spring Garden
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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Story Saturdays - More Ichabod & Penelope

As of this morning (Thursday 5/9/2013) "my boys" are sitting at 1-2-3 on the Christian Fiction/Short Stories best-selling charts and essentially jockeying for position with each other. Many thanks to all who've worked to put them there and to the readers for buying.



Today, I thought I'd share another excerpt from an upcoming YA entitled "Ichabod & Penelope." (That being the story I'm currently working on.) If you missed it, the very first piece of the book is still on the blog. In that scene, the two main characters shared an amazing kiss, never mind they didn't know one another.

Today, we meet the actual faces behind the false names, Georgia Davis and Devon Walker. The thing is, neither one of them want to know that. For now. 

Also, here's your first look at the book cover.

EXCERPT:
“So you’re telling me you kissed some strange boy, who’d given you a false name, just for the heck of it?” The lift of Heather’s eyebrows and bite of her voice fully expressed her disbelief.
I stuffed my sandwich in my mouth, thus rendering myself speechless.
But she waited, her fingers tapping on the tabletop in a staccato rhythm.
I gulped the bite down. “He was cute,” I said.
“Cute? Antoine was cute, too, but I didn’t kiss him.”
Antoine. Why’d she dig him up? That was tenth grade. I kept that thought to myself.
“He asked.” I tried this angle, but she puckered her mouth, drawing up one side of her face. Disbelief. She wasn’t buying it.
“Did you at least get his real name?”
I smiled. “Nope.”
Her expression became yet more wide-eyed. “No? And you agreed to go out with him?”
I grinned. I had, sans name.
“Friday,” I replied.
“Georgia Davis, you’re crazy. You cannot go out with a boy if you don’t know his real name.”
“I can and I will.”
She smacked me in the forehead. “Knock some sense into that pretty noggin. He could be a crazy pervert. He could have more girls than Satan’s got demons.”
I scowled. She was ruining my good mood.
“Okay, that was a bad analogy, but you know you’re inexperienced.” She sat back in her chair, one arm over the ridge of the seat, and kinked her neck an inch or two. “You liked him.”
Unabashed, I gazed back at her. I had, immensely. He’d made me laugh.
“But you need to date Thomas.”
“Thomas? I don’t want to date Thomas. He’s …” How to say disgusting kindly? “Gross.”
“Gross, but safe,” she said. “And dating Mr. Unknown is not safe. You need to call this off.”
“I’m not calling this off,” I said. “This is the best I’ve felt in ages, and you’re only jealous because your last date was a complete bust.”
Gropey McGroperson. That’s what she’d called him. All hands and fingers, picking at her blouse, roaming everywhere.
“At least with him I knew what he was about to do. With this guy, you don’t. Besides, how are you going to avoid finding out his name? If he goes here, someone will know him.”
I took a sip of my drink, fiddling with the straw. “We thought of that. We’re meeting at the gates and driving one town over.”
“You planned it together?” She blew out a puff of air. “You’re crazy. After all the stories on the news …”
“Oh, come on!” I snapped, interrupting her. “You’re treating me like I’m some nincompoop. I’ll be fine. I know how to say no.”
But her return expression said she doubted it and more than that, that she was worried. I couldn’t see why. It was only one date, one date I was going on whether she liked it or not.
I checked the time on my phone. “You’re going to be late for class.”
Her face changed then from contemplation of my safety to complete panic. She couldn’t afford to be late again. She shot up from the table, slinging her book bag over her shoulder, and waved at me before she disappeared. I returned to my sandwich.
I had a date, an actual date, with a guy I couldn’t wait to go out with. So what I didn’t know his name. He didn’t know mine either, and that was half the fun of it.
I couldn’t see as there was any harm. Heather was just being paranoid.

***

“Devon, dude!”
Devon pocketed his cell and looked for the person calling his name. His gaze landed on Rory Hutchins’ bulging face, and a curse word fell out. Fortunately, if Rory heard it, he didn’t respond or apply it personally.
“Saw you this morning,” Rory said. He grinned and wiggled his eyebrows upward, an expression that made him look curiously like a turtle.
Devon leaned his weight on one hip. “And?”
“And,” he drew the word out. “You were sucking face with some babe.”
With a roll of his eyes, Devon went back to his amble across campus.
Rory skipped a step to catch up. “Well?”
“Well, what?”
“Well, who was she?”
Devon stopped in place again. “Can’t say that’s any of your business.”
Rory held his hands up, palms outward, almost dropping his books in the process. “Sorry. Not stepping on your toes. What’s got into you today?”
He was failing creative writing, that’s what, and didn’t know what to do about it. Now, add to that Rory was annoying, and––
He frowned. Frankly, kissing the girl had been the highlight of his day.
What had possessed him to kiss her anyhow? Well, other than how tasty she looked. He pictured her again, lying flat in the grass, her bum, her beautiful, rounded bum sticking upward.
That’s what he’d seen first. And in comparing hers to other girls, hers was far superior. Hers was the kind you grabbed onto. Then she’d sat up and granted him a fleeting glimpse of some very nice breasts.
Truthfully, that was the sole reason, he’d approached. He’d simply had to talk to a girl shaped like that. But something about the foolishness they’d played had sucked him in. She’d laughed at his stupidity.
Ichabod and Penelope. He smirked.
He hadn’t decided to kiss her until seated on the bench. Then, having decided, he couldn’t back out. He had to know if there were sparks.
Sparks? More like fireworks. Best kiss he’d ever had in his life and that with a complete stranger.
“You gonna see her again?” Rory asked.
Devon halted in front of the doorway to the next building. “I kissed her. Didn’t I?”
Rory’s fat face split into a wide grin. “Yes, you did.”
He turned his back on Rory and shoved his way through the heavy metal door then down the long corridor toward the school library. Swinging inside, he glanced around the room and his gaze landed on a face seated on the far side. Brad Schmidt, long-time friend and fellow avid bicyclist.
Brad raised his hand and waved. “Man, I thought you were gonna bail on me.”
Descending into a chair, Devon gave a crooked smile. “Never.”
“‘Cause if you’re bailin’ then I’m failin’”
Devon shook his head and laughed. “Lame. Besides, you’d find me and hang me out to dry.”
“That I would.” Brad curved his fingers over the edge of his book and tilted his head. “Wait. You look different. No, don’t tell me. I’m gonna guess.”
Devon reclined in the chair, resting one arm on the table top.
Maggie called. No. That’s not it.” Brad tapped the tip of his pencil on his notebook. “She always calls. Think harder, Brad. Harder.”
Devon snatched the pencil to silence it, leaving Brad’s fingers aloft.
He flattened them to the table. “You got accepted in the bike race.”
“I didn’t apply for the bike race. I didn’t want to get my butt kicked.”
He held up his hand. “Don’t tell me yet, because I’m gonna figure it out.” Squinching his eyes, he pursed his lips. “You have a date.”
Devon’s mouth twitched.
“That’s it! You do have a date. Devon Walker has a date. Who? Spill!”
Reversing the pencil, Devon shoved it back in Brad’s hand and reached for the Algebra book.
“Really? You’re giving me the silent treatment? All these months I’ve been trying to set you up, and now you have a date, but you’re not going to tell me with who? Fine. I’ll guess again. Is it Lindsay?”
Devon flipped through the Algebra book to the page they’d left off on. “No.”
“Carol?”
“You won’t guess, so quit trying, and you’re wasting study time anyhow.”
Brad laid a hand on the open book to cover it. “I don’t care. This is more important. At least, you can tell me if she’s hot.”
Devon focused his gaze on Brad’s face. “She’s hot, and a very good kisser.”
Brad’s eyes widened. “You kissed her already? So you’ve been out with her before?” He sounded offended.
“Yes, and no. In that order. Now, can we work?”
Brad slid his hand off the book and reached for his pencil. “Just promise me, you’ll hang onto this one and not freak like before.”
Devon sighed. “I am a freak, but I’ve reconciled myself to that.”
Brad shook his head and rearranged his things. “One of these days you’ll stop being so hard on yourself for something you had no control of.” He ran his finger down the page and across to the assignment.
Devon resisted the urge to pitch some sort of childish fit, instead exhaling slowly until he’d run out of breath. Brad was right, of course, but what he didn’t understand was how labeled it’d made him. And that was something he wanted no more of.

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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

God Doesn't Wear Headphones

For one who speaks in an [unknown] tongue speaks not to men but to God, for no one understands or catches his meaning, because in the [Holy] Spirit he utters secret truths and hidden things [not obvious to the understanding]. (1Co 14:2 AMP)


I prayed a prayer like everyone else with an idea in my mind of how it'd all turn out. I saw it all, clear as day. God said, "Whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive," so I asked, expecting, fervent in my heart. (Mt 21:22 NKJ;Jas 5:16)

But it didn't happen that way. In fact, as far as I could see it didn't happen at all, and I fell into the trap of so many others - the WHY GOD trap.

Why, God, didn't you answer? I asked. I believed. I know You want to. I know you promised it. I had Scriptures. I had people agreeing with me.

Yet nothing. Nothing at all.

Then the truth sank into my heart. Do I believe God isn't listening? No, of course not. God doesn't wear headphones. He can hear me and you and them and all of those all at the same time and know what we said, how we said it, and what word we'll say next.

So that isn't the problem.

Do I believe then that God chose not to answer? I mean, is He sitting up there, enjoying the view while I struggle? Ridiculous. He's the ultimate Man of His Word, the One you can turn to at any hour on any day at any moment and know He's awake. He isn't backing out, changing His mind. (Ps 15:4)

Nor do I believe God isn't able. I'm not that dumb. Anyone who can part the Red Sea, have a donkey talk, heal the blind, make the lame walk, bring men back from the dead, and defeat the enemy of our souls is obviously fully capable of answering this prayer for me.

Which leaves only one solution. One reason why my prayer didn't come true. God is too smart. That makes sense. He's simply so smart that He knew what I needed before I needed it, knew what I'd need after it didn't happen like I thought.

He knew that I was praying fervently, but the whole time what the Holy Spirit was saying through me was God's perfect will. It wasn't my mental image. It wasn't what I'd decided. It was the mystery He'd said it would be.

And a mystery is just that - a thing I don't understand, can't interpret, and am unsure of - but that doesn't mean He does. Oh, no. He's the Light. He's the Truth. He's the Answer. So as long as I'm praying, no matter how awful the situation seems, no matter if it's life or death, God always answers.

Because just think. What if I hadn't prayed? What if I knew it wouldn't happen like I wanted, so I didn't pray at all? Then what if The After was horrible, awfully bad, and I couldn't get over it?

What if my prayers, though they weren't what I thought, were exactly what I needed? And what if those same prayers went on for eternity? What if they're still working, still changing, still making a difference? Then I didn't waste my time speaking them.Then you didn't waste your time. Then your grandmother, though she's long gone, didn't waste hers.

Then her prayers still rise before the Father as incense, as a reminder, that somebody prayed and that's pretty awesome to think about. That makes me pray harder. That makes me believe more. That makes me know that I know that I know that my God is bigger than anything out there, that whatever I'm facing, even if I think I know the answer, will come out all right in the end. 

And you can't beat that.

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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Sunday Photographs

Here are this week's 365 Project photographs. Enjoy! If you want to view the entire year of photographs so far, visit my Photobucket album.

Day 118, Lily
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Day 119, Four O'Clock
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Day 120, Lily of the Nile
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Day 121, Valencia Orange Blossoms
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Day 122, Orchid
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Day 123, Crab Spider
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Day 124, Wasp
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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Story Saturdays - Lucas McGilley

Be sure to download your copy of my latest Young Adult Romance, THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE, presently climbing the charts to sit next to Timothy Cooper and Jackson Phillips, still at #1 and #2. Only 99 cents for the first few weeks!

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Also, Book 2 in The Sanders Family Series, FOUND, is now available at Barnes & Noble. I will release Book 1 there when it completes its current KDP Select cycle at Amazon, sometime at the end of June.

THE LIFE AND TIMES OF LUCAS MCGILLEY was presented on the blog before, but since then, I've revamped it into a contemporary story, redone the book cover, and completed writing it. The scene that was on the blog weeks ago is still in the book, but updated.

Lucas McGilley is the troublemaker in his family. The second of eight boys, he spent his youth pulling pranks. Yet growing up comes hard, and he’s learned his lesson. Or so he thinks.

Then Iris Willow shows up for the summer, and the future he’s planned is altered by love, and strife, and a terrible secret. He needs her, more than he’s ever thought possible. But can he convince her to stay, or will she catch the train and be gone forever?

Today's excerpt comes from Chapter 1. I am unsure right now when it'll be released, perhaps in a month or so. I have other things cooking in the meantime. Enjoy!


EXCERPT:  

2012
Sam skidded to a halt at Lucas’ feet, the left side of his face screwed into a ball. “Lucas, you’ve done it now.”
Lucas looked down at his youngest brother, his face expressionless. “Why does every sentence nowadays begin with my name?”
Sam whirled himself back and forth, flinging his arms outward and allowing them to smack against his sides. “‘Cause you’re usually the one who done it.’”
Sam was right, usually he had.
“Ain’t you askin’ me what you done?” Sam said.
Lucas eyeballed him. He hadn’t asked because asking seemed pointless. He was always being blamed for something. “Okay, so tell me what I’ve done.”
“You forgot to let Honey out.”
“Shoot.” Honey, his father’s prize mare. He had forgotten, and his father would have his hide.
“Better not let Mom hear you say that,” Sam said. “She’ll take out the soap.”
Lucas clamped his mouth tight just thinking about it. She’d washed his mouth out more than once, and it was a most unpleasant experience.
“Tell me. Why can’t any of the rest of you let her out? Why’s it become my job?” he asked.
With seven brothers, you’d think one of them would do him a favor, but it never worked out that way.
“Jesse’s at work,” Sam said, “and Marcus and James went fishin’.”
Jesse, at nineteen, was the eldest. Marcus and James were sixteen and fifteen respectively. He fell between the trio in age; he was eighteen.
“And Will, Charles, and John?” he asked. But distracted by sight of their mother, Sam gave no answer.
Lucas took in her narrow form.
Shading her eyes with her right hand, she scanned the yard, at sight of him dropping it to her side. “Lucas, need you to run an errand.”
Lucas shook off his noontime languor and walked from beneath the palm tree into the bright summer sun.
His mother smoothed her skirt. “Need you to pick up someone from the train.” Hair had escaped from the bun on the nape of her neck, and the thin strands waved in the breeze of her movements.
“The train?”
A frown appeared on her face at the sharpness in his voice, so he cleared his throat and tried again. “The train? Who …”
But he didn’t get to finish the question because she cut him off. “A friend. Now, if you don’t get going you’ll be late.”
A friend? He mulled that over in his walk to the barn where he moved to Honey’s stall. He’d let her out before he left. She greeted him with a whinny and toss of her head. Involuntarily, he scratched her ears.
Who could possibly be coming on the train? His mother didn’t have any friends that he knew of. Plus––
He walked Honey outside the barn to the pasture, her hooves clopping on the packed soil.
Plus, there was nowhere in the house to put anyone. Eight boys took up all the space.
Maybe it was someone with a connection to his father. That held more possibilities. A business associate? No, she’d said it was a friend. His dad’s sister? That thought turned his head around.
Opening the gate, he unhooked the rope and released Honey. She took off at a trot, her tail fanning out behind her.
His dad’s sister would be something. She didn’t come too often, and when she did, she stayed in town. That’d make more sense. That’s probably who it was. Strange though for her to come during the summer since she hated the Florida heat.
He trailed back to the house, his boots kicking up the dust. Guess he’d find out soon enough.

***

The steady clack of the train’s wheels formed a rhythm in my mind, their motion eventually rocking me to sleep. I awakened with my legs stiff from sitting so long and a distinct earache.
I glanced at the baby across the aisle and said a silent prayer he’d not start crying again. His poor mother had tried so hard to shut him up. Yet the further we’d traveled, the more he’d cried until the nerves of all in the car were strained and I had a brain-splitting headache.
I smiled at her, one of those, I-feel-real-sorry-for-you kinda smiles, then looked out the window, past the empty seat beside me at the flat landscape flying by and some huge part of me missed Atlanta – the buildings, the asphalt and concrete.
Not that there weren’t green spaces there, but out here there was nothing. Nothing but acres and acres of trees, a handful of lakes, and grass as far as I could see. It was pretty in its own way, spacious, you know. And remote.
Remote and out of the way and not home. Thinking like that made me frown and looking at my cell phone made me frown worse. There hadn’t been any service for miles, and I wanted to talk to Christine. I dropped the useless thing in my lap with a huff.
“Iris, dear, I’m sending you to Florida,” my Aunt Claire had said. I heard her speaking in my head so sharp, as if she was right there at my side.
“Florida? Why?”
Why, when I’d made plans for the summer. Me and Christine had made a list of what we wanted to do, the places we would go, the boys we would flirt with. After all, this was my first summer since graduating from high school, and I wanted to live it up. Let down my hair. I couldn’t see how Florida fit into any of that.
“I’ve decided to take a trip, and I can’t leave you here alone, so I’m sending you to an old friend.”
A friend? This made me think two things. First, that Aunt Claire had an old friend. Second, my aunt being my only living relative, she’d bummed me off on a friend.
Who were these people anyway? I yanked the note she’d written from my purse and reread it. Ada and Paul McGilley, McGilley Farms. After that she’d written their address and a phone number.
A farm. Really? I was being sent into the middle of nowhere to spend my summer of freedom on a farm. What the heck?
That’s what I’d said to her when she’d described it, too.
“They have eight boys,” Aunt Claire had said.
Eight? That sweetened the pot a bit; I did like boys. But then I got to thinking about what kind of boys, and dismissed it. Eight redneck, grass-chewing, country bumpkins driving big trucks and dipping snuff.
I blew out a loud breath, drawing a gaze from the man across the aisle, and crossed my arms.
The landscape changed, the empty grassland split by a road going off into the distance. I laid my head back against the seat and closed my eyes. Why stay awake? Everything out here looked the same, and since I had nothing to look forward, why bother with any of it?
This sucked, and it was going to be the most awful summer ever.


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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

A Fool to Self-Rule

Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. (Ps 139:7-10)


I'd run as far as I could. After all, I was free to make my own choices. Right?

Nothing held me down, tied me back, or kept me in place. I wasn't obligated to anyone. I owed no one anything. So packing up my stuff, I left, determined to show I knew what I was doing. I didn't need His help.

He wouldn't find me anyway. I mean, how could He be everywhere at once? No one could do that. I'd been put on this earth to live life my way, to make my own choices, have a good time, see the sights. And hang the consequences.

I'll do what the other people do, what the in-crowd, the know-it-alls, the most-populars do to make them what they are, and I'll have the best time, earn my fifteen minutes, and if I die, I'll die on my terms, knowing I'd done exactly what I chose.

No way I'll be like the other half. The pansies. The good people, in their expensive cars and tailored suits, their high heels and Sunday dresses, bowing and scraping before something or someone I can't see, don't even wanna see. Don't need.

I mean, that's all right for them, but frankly, I don't believe in it. I believe in me, in this one moment being all there is, in my decisions being my own, and them taking me where I want to go.

If I get off course, it's all right. At least, it's on my terms.

Yet here I stand at the end of everything and it's awfully dark. But this is what I decided on, so I'll accept it. I-I'm happy with my life, and it's ... it's okay here in this shadowy twilight wrapping all around me. Th-this is where I'm supposed to be.

I ... I can handle it. No ... no need to help me.

What? You ... you're still here? You followed me? But ... but I escaped. We parted ways days ago, months ago, years ago. I ignored You, set You aside, made You of no importance, put distance between us. I made my bed and here I lie, prepared to accept things as they are.

Why would You help me? Why extend Yourself to someone as low as I am, to someone who rejected every instruction, turned a blind eye to all the signs, the blinking, shining, arrows pointing to a different path than the one I'm on.

After all, You're over there, not over here. You're better than me, higher than me, wiser than me. You're for them, those people with crosses around their necks and the Good Book in their hands. 

But I have scars, proof of where I've been, what I've done, how I've lived, and those mark me as the other side. They confirm my choices and judge me for every action I've made, so I can't possibly take Your hand and go back. I have no right to start over.

No right. No power. No privilege. No claim.

Yet maybe ... maybe I was wrong. Maybe Your being here means something. Maybe You followed me, not because of what I was, or where my life was taking me, maybe You followed simply because You knew where I'd end up, that I'd be here, wondering what came after The End.

Maybe in some small way I misjudged to think I could ever go farther, move faster, or travel longer than You. Maybe there is such a thing as a second chance.Maybe if I take Your hand, it'll be all right, and I'll find something over there I need so much more than this independence, self-reliance, self-sufficiency, self-rule.

Maybe there I can sit down, rest a while. Let You make the decisions. Let you lead me where I need to go and be content to follow.

Maybe I will. I think I will. I never escaped anyhow. Did I? I fooled myself to think I did.

*This has been a satirical interpretation of the Scripture and is not in any way reflective of any one person.

We are His portion and
He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption
by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns
violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way


He loves us.

 

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Suzanne D. Williams  
Suzanne Williams Photography  
Florida, USA 

Suzanne Williams is a native Floridian, wife, and mother, with a penchant for spelling anything, who happens to love photography.